I’m supposed to be in the swimming pool this morning. Husband and children sacrifice so Mom can have a little bit of sanity time, but sometimes sanity comes in the form of a laptop, a white page for word-smithing and powerful worship music….
Sometimes worship is sung out through fingers rather than through voice…This morning may my words be worship. May they write out the story that God has written on my heart. May they bring praise to the Lord and maybe, just maybe, a little light to your life as well.
Several weeks ago, on my early morning drive to the pool, a fog rolled in. Deep, heavy…obscuring everything around me. Headlights cleared a path just a couple of feet in front of me and cast an eerie glow around the vehicle.
As I peered into the glowing haze, a sense of overwhelming, almost paralyzing fear overcomes me. I sat at a stop sign not 50 yards from my home contemplating turning back. Quiet comfort, sweet snuggly arms waited for me behind, the unknown lay before…and I battled the fear and I battled insecurity and God’s word came to cut through the fray—“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him and he will make your paths straight.”
Keep going, He whispered to me. I’ve got you.
Deep breath, murmured prayer and off I go, slicing my way through the hazy darkness.
The fog was so thick in spots, even though the subtleties of the road there are known to me, I know where each bump and pothole and slight curve is, I was disoriented by my lack of vision. I gripped tight the wheel and prayed and continued on.
Sometimes, over a hill or around a bend, there would be moments of crystal clarity where the path before me was plainly visible and I would breathe in a sigh of relief and let down for just a moment, and then plunge back into the hazy darkness.
As I was cutting through the fog, what a perfect picture of our faith walk this experience was. What an intense experience of all the emotions we journey through on our journey with God. What a manifestation of the word picture “Your word is a lamp unto my feet.”
In this life, we are surrounded by dense fog more often than not. We are all trying to slice through the haze and darkness and find our way to our final destination. Some of us know well the path, some of us are just learning, some choose to march it in utter darkness and others choose to light the way with the word of God. I am so thankful that ten years ago someone (several of them actually) took the time to help me find that lamp.
Even with light to brighten the way and push back the shadows enough to see our next step, there is fear and insecurity. When we can’t see the way, it’s so easy to want to stay where we are comfortable, where there is warmth and clarity. But we are called to go….we are called to love….we are called to the great Story of the One who came for us. He promises to make our paths straight. We just have to lean in and trust the He has us.
Keep going, He whispers to us. I’ve got you.
Thankfully, there will be moments when we will catch brief glimpses of all God has for us ahead and it’s a glorious…stunning…victory. I just hope the next glimpse I get, I will be less concerned about letting down and more focused on taking in the awe of His great plan for me.
This week, as you are peering through the haze, remember what His word says to us:
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him and he will make your paths straight.” – Proverbs 3:5-6