Redemption- the act of purchasing back something previously sold; the recovery of an item previously mortgaged or traded.
“When the Bible tells us that Christ came to “redeem mankind” it offers a whole lot more than forgiveness. To simply forgive a broken man is like telling someone running a marathon, ‘It’s okay that you’ve broken your leg. I won’t hold it against you. Now finish the race.’ That would be cruel, to leave him disabled that way. No, there is so much more to our redemption. The core of Christ’s mission is foretold in Isaiah 61:
The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me,
because the LORD has anointed me
to proclaim good news to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim freedom for the captives
and release from darkness for the prisoners, – (v 1)
The Messiah will come, he says, to bind up and heal, to release and set free. What? Your heart.” –John Eldredge, Wild at Heart
I’ve heard this over and over. I believe it wholeheartedly. Christ came to heal the brokenhearted, to set the captives free, to release from darkness the prisoners. I believe He came for me.
To heal MY broken heart,
to proclaim MY freedom and
to release ME from darkness.
I think I always believed that redemption was something Christ was about in the big things in life. I think I always believed that He wanted to heal the big scars on my heart, the ones that affected my daily life and everyday relationships. I believed He was about healing, even about my healing, but I guess I underestimated what He thought was important enough to recover….to redeem.
Something beautiful happened at Ransomed Heart’s Advanced Captivating Retreat….God set about redeeming all sorts of memories from my past. Some of them difficult, some of them challenging, some of them were just tiny little pin pricks in my heart- scars I was never aware of until God set about His healing work. Most of them linked straight back to the spirit of fear in my life. God set about smashing fears left and right…
Fear of Heights:
Fear of new relationships (yep, I said it…the covenant relationship ‘guru’ is afraid to reach out to new people…interesting, huh…I promise to tell this story soon!):
And probably most significantly a fear of horses (clearly a work in progress-:)
This fear, the fear of riding, is something I’ve battled for years. When I was fourteen, I spent the weekend at a friend’s farm. I had always loved to watch horses (but had never been around them), and my friend offered to go riding with me.
Long story short, I was thrown from the horse, was spectacularly banged up, and it set in play a series of events that wounded me deeply. I have struggled with a fear of horses since. I never really understood it all until God pushed me to sign up for a 2 hour trail ride during this trip. I obeyed. I leaned into trust that God was working. I leaned into new friendships and prayer. I leaned into a beautiful bay named Amigo who was awesome.
Honestly, it was hard to start. I was terrified in the beginning (mostly when we were waiting, and it was up to me to keep my horse from doing things he wasn’t supposed to). Ashley and Allison prayed- over our time, over our horses, over our hearts—and I felt peace start to seep in.
As we rode out onto the trail, through the aspens and over streams…I was transported…God’s presence was so real in those moments. I could sense God’s healing touch like soothing balm to wounds that I had lived with so long I didn’t remember I had. Wounds that didn’t seem like a big deal, that didn’t seem like something so important that God would go about healing, wounds I had discounted.
Why did’nt He?
Because Christ is about healing my heart….all of it.
This song….oh, man this song, has been such an encouragement to me during the “re-entry” process (you know- the coming home from an awesome, real time experience with God to the busyness and craziness of our daily lives?). This song so reminds me…I am more than these ashes say….I am the rose…I am the Bride…