I wrote this post several months ago and was recently rereading my posts looking for a good post to link to (In)Courage today. I had forgotten I had written this, ironically enough, to link to (In) Courage…and well it spoke volumes to me today. I hope it will speak to you as well.
It is late. Or early (depending on your “half empty/half full” viewpoint. About 4 am. I have been lying awake for nearly an hour now…restless…and repentant.
I have been working this ministry for the last 7 months now…taking this God given message and kneading it like a piece of dough. What happens to dough when you work it over too much and don’t let it rise within the pan…yep, it gets all stale and hard and not at all appealing. Dear God, I am so sorry…
I am haunted this morning by a post I read at (In)Courage, a challenge of sorts, to write your divine love story. When I first read it, I thought, “self, you should so do that!” and then I closed my email and when off about my business. But I kept coming back to it, and as I lay in bed tossing and turning and asking God to forgive me and give me strength to run this race called life, he whispers, ever so softly in the night, “I still love you.”
Extravagantly, He loves me. Even when I mess up. Even when I let the busyness of life take over and stand in the way of our communication. Even when I get so focussed on doing His work I forget to live His work. He cares for me and blesses me in more ways than I can even fathom, let alone recount. He holds me and comforts me, keeps me safe when I have run headlong into the path of the enemy, and He heals my hurts, my scars, my self-inflicted wounds. He is my peace in the storm, my strength in the race, my light in the darkness. And even in my imperfect humanness and all my failed efforts to live life on His terms instead of mine, he STILL loves me. THAT, my friends is divine.
The most amazing thing about this love is that he only asks two simple things in return: that I love Him back and that I tell others. And I do both. Not nearly enough…not with extravagance that I should, but here, in the wee hours of the morning I making a new start. I am telling you.
His love is so perfect, and it isn’t just for me…it’s for you, too. He’s already given it to you, you just have to accept the gift and invite Him in. Will you?
If you would like to learn more about my journey with the Lord, you can read My Testimony here.